Nuestro castigo
tu libertad
y en las manos en rostro

Nuestro castigo
tu libertad
y en las manos en rostro

El castigo nos lo hemos llevado nosotros
con el rostro hundido en las manos,
mientras tú has encontrado la libertad que anhelabas.
Antes de que te dieras cuenta de que ya no estaba
yo ya me había arrepentido de haberme ido
Las cosas que hacen feliz no se olvidan.
The moment had to come
and today arrived;
just some minutes ago.
And at first I was afraid
and I felt lost.
But then my only thought was to leave everything tidy.
21/01/2020, ~1:00
Sólo conozco
la crisis de vivir;
y te acostumbras.
Y, al final del Camino,
la Mar me esperaba
Y, dejando a Destino atrás,
llegué a los Cielos.

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And I arrived at the Heavens
And the Sea was waiting.
Actuar para contigo mismo
largo, largo tiempo
no darse cuenta de que la actuación y lo actuado ya son uno
y se vuelve contra ti
Y perder el control
de tu propio acto.
Why living is so complicated.
Why leaving so absurd.
He told me that. And then he told me that I needed it, that he knew that I needed it. To free myself, to feel better, to have fun.
And what did I think? I thought that maybe I was being rude. That he was just trying to help me somehow although I didn’t want what he was offering me. What would he think if now I just push him or if I struggle, or if I scream to him? I would be a terrible person, and the day and my relation with him as friend would be ruined. Would I be even strong enough to push him away?
Then I felt small and weak.
[About A.R.]
Y, entre los pasillos de flores, hoy:
Silencio.
Y a mi lado sentirte
como una sombra
sin que nos agoten los pasos