He told me that. And then he told me that I needed it, that he knew that I needed it. To free myself, to feel better, to have fun.

And what did I think? I thought that maybe I was being rude. That he was just trying to help me somehow although I didn’t want what he was offering me. What would he think if now I just push him or if I struggle, or if I scream to him? I would be a terrible person, and the day and my relation with him as friend would be ruined. Would I be even strong enough to push him away?

Then I felt small and weak.

[About A.R.]